quick update

#1: Still not pregnant. My cycle is all spastic still. If my period or a positive pregnancy test doesn't show up by 11-11 than I am going to the doctor to find out what's up and see if I can get this ball rolling!

#2: Nathan is a baby lover all of a sudden. While I was in California with my aunts, I got a text from him telling me how cute our niece was being. AND on Sunday, we were at his cousin's mission farewell and he played telephone, asking for the baby to passed down our way because I wanted to hold her. LIES! HEEEEEE wanted to hold her and play with her. He loves making faces at her and stuff. It's really cute.

#3: I stayed home sick from work today and while I was home I did some cleaning and daily housework stuff and I LOVED IT! I think being a stay at home mom is going to be awesome. All of our debt (except the house and my student loan) will be paid off by June of next year- so when we finally have a baby I can quit my job and stay at home full time. I can't wait!

plans changed again...

We aren't waiting til November. We are trying NOW! We have actually been trying for a couple weeks- we figure- why wait? I am so ready to start our family it ridiculous- and I am ridiculously excited about the possibility. I can't wait to be a little family! Now hopefully my body will cooperate- I doing my best to think positively and not stress about it- I am just so anxious! I want it right now! but I will try to be patient.

....but it's so hard! ACK! I'M SO EXCITED!

so, it's been a while....

I didn't realize how long it had been since I last blogged! I think that is because I compose blogs in my head all the time- but then I forget to actually type them up.

So, here is the latest on the baby front. I totally thought that I was pregnant when we went to the family reunion in Lake Tahoe. I got my hopes up really high and was let down when the pregnancy test came back negative and I finally got my period about a week later. I am not kidding you though- I had like ALL the symptoms: heartburn, fatigue, random nausea, breast sensitivity, and of course I had been without a period for a loooooooooong time. I was really sad about it; but Nathan and I got to talking and we decided that we are going to try to get pregnant in November!

I am really feeling good about this. I hope it all pans out. This would make me due around August 2012. Now I am just crossing my fingers that my ovaries will cooperate!

baby stuff lust

I went to Buy Buy Baby today on a girl date with Kassi and I fell in love with a crib and some new baby bedding.

I know, I already bought baby bedding, but maybe if I am a really good girl and save up my pennies, Nathan will let me sell the other bedding on Ebay or save for another pregnancy and let me get these!!!

The crib and the bedding should only set me back about $1800..... =/

the privilege of motherhood

We talked. Nathan still isn't sure if he is ready for kids.

This song keeps playing in my head. Kinda emo and dramatic, I know, but it keep popping into mind.

"Learn to be lonely. Learn how to love life that is lived alone.... Life can be lived, life can be loved, alone."

it's about time!

My period finally came on Thursday the 21st. Almost exactly 3 months since my last one. That's almost a month longer than my last cycle. I have a feeling that my goal to be pregnant by the end of May is pretty much an impossibility at this point.

I was doing some math as I was laying in bed last night and, according to my calculations, if I have another cycle like the one that just finished up- and if I monitor my ovulation just right- we might be able to pull off getting pregnant the beginning of July- which would make us due around the end of March- beginning of April. This is NOT what I was hoping for. I really wanted to have a baby BEFORE our 3rd anniversary.

Hopefully that will all work out we won't still be trying by the end of the year. I feel like I have waited so long already.