baby stuff lust

I went to Buy Buy Baby today on a girl date with Kassi and I fell in love with a crib and some new baby bedding.

I know, I already bought baby bedding, but maybe if I am a really good girl and save up my pennies, Nathan will let me sell the other bedding on Ebay or save for another pregnancy and let me get these!!!

The crib and the bedding should only set me back about $1800..... =/

the privilege of motherhood

We talked. Nathan still isn't sure if he is ready for kids.

This song keeps playing in my head. Kinda emo and dramatic, I know, but it keep popping into mind.

"Learn to be lonely. Learn how to love life that is lived alone.... Life can be lived, life can be loved, alone."

it's about time!

My period finally came on Thursday the 21st. Almost exactly 3 months since my last one. That's almost a month longer than my last cycle. I have a feeling that my goal to be pregnant by the end of May is pretty much an impossibility at this point.

I was doing some math as I was laying in bed last night and, according to my calculations, if I have another cycle like the one that just finished up- and if I monitor my ovulation just right- we might be able to pull off getting pregnant the beginning of July- which would make us due around the end of March- beginning of April. This is NOT what I was hoping for. I really wanted to have a baby BEFORE our 3rd anniversary.

Hopefully that will all work out we won't still be trying by the end of the year. I feel like I have waited so long already.

the latest

First of all I would like to mention that I pulled off- what I think- is an EPIC April Fool's joke. Yes- the fake pregnancy has been done before, but I'm not sure to this extent with so many believers! To read my "announcement" blog- click here. To see the facebook photo (with comments) which lured people to the blog- click here. And then to see the big reveal- click here. (Sorry, it's just too much of a story to re-write the whole thing- I'm taking the lazy route.) Some people took the news better than others- but most were good sports about the whole thing. It was fun reading people's comments all day- and go back and forth about whether or not it was a joke.

So anyway, here is what has been going on lately- my period is all screwed up. I am in the same situation I was before- where I am like super late, taking pregnancy tests every week. I am probably not going to go to the doctor unless I go another month without it because my last doctor visit- cost me over $100 in blood work to find NOTHING. So I am thinking that getting pregnant isn't going to be as easy as I had hoped. I'm not going to be able to do a simple calculation to figure out what days I am probably ovulating- I may have to be that person that has an infinity of ovulation tests under the bathroom sink. Kinda frustrating.

I'd still like to try for the end of May- but my last period was January 23rd- so I'm just not sure that will happen. We are shooting for a boy month on the Chinese birth calendar. Yes, I know that sounds silly- but I know a lot of people that the chart was accurate for- and the pressure is on to have a boy!


I am 24 (until September)- so April, May, and July are my boy months until then. I hope I don't have to look at the chart beyond that- I am crossing my fingers that by the end July we will have a bun in the oven- but at this point, who knows?! I wanna hop on this boy train that seems to be going by right now- Alicia, Jenn, and Kassie are all expecting boys and my cousin just had her boy too!

In other news, we have moved the pottery shop from north Phoenix- into our garage. We have stuff everywhere and I am working on getting it all organized. My sister is coming over today to help me organize my craft room- which will one day be the nursery. With baby time just around the corner (hopefully) and all my craft stuff staring me in the face- I am kinda feeling like I am having to make a decision between having a baby and having a hobby. I just don't know that there is space for both in this house right now.

Nathan says I shouldn't worry about it right now- that I should just get the craft room organized and throw anything away yet because we will have at least 9 months to figure out where to put it
all once we find out we're pregnant. At the rate my cycle is going I may have a year of crafting left before I need to rearrange.


On a brighter note- both of my cousins had their babies this past weekend!

My cousin, Miranda, from my dad's side of the family, had a beautiful baby girl. They named her Ryleigh Elaine. She was a few weeks early, but healthy- weighing in at 6lbs 9oz and 18 inches long and looks like her daddy.




My cousin, Desiree, from my mom's side of the family had her little boy- after 60 hours of labor!! He's a big boy- 8.13 pounds and 22.5 inches! Long with big feet- and SUPER cute. They named him Dylan Connor- and he also looks like his daddy.


Miranda lives on the other side of the country, so I haven't gotten the chance to meet Ryleigh, but Desiree and Devin are just over in Scottsdale, so I got to visit baby Dylan twice already. They are going to be really great parents- they make a cute little family. =)

much easier to swallow...

Gummy pre-natal vitamins are AWESOME!!! The regular pill kind are giant and gross and I never remember to take them. These actually taste pretty good! I keep them on the counter in the bathroom, and just pop a couple in my mouth before or after I brush my teeth in the morning. Simple and fantastic!



Whoever created these was a genius!

baby presents!

I got do one of my favorite things today- baby shopping! Yay! I had TWO babies to buy for this time- which made it extra fun! I needed to get something for my cousin, Desiree's, baby shower AND something for Bailee, who is turning 1!

Here is what I got for Desiree, who is having a little boy (I'm jealous!):

A little red, white, and blue romper- maybe for the 4th of July?

A super cute sweater and cords- for when it gets chilly outside when he's about 6-9 months.

AND a cute little hoodie!

I had a heck of a time shopping for her little guy at this store! I found lots of super cute stuff, but none of it was the right size for the seasons! She is due in April, so I thought I would find some cute little shirt/short set for the summer time, but all of the awesome summer clothes were only for 6 months and older. By the time he is 6 months its going to start getting too chilly for shorts and tees! I got the romper for summer time and got the other stuff for when he's a bit bigger. Shopping for his first b-day will probably easier- there seemed to be a larger selection of boy clothes 12months and up.

And speaking of first birthdays- here is what I got for little Bailee:

Her mom doesn't like pink- so that made her birthday shopping a little tricky too! Sooooo much pink right now, since spring is just around the corner. So since pink was off limits, I went with purple- still girly and cute- especially with the shoes! I might make a hair bow to go with it too- not sure if I will have time or not.

Naturally all this baby shopping made me a little baby hungry! I am anxious for May to get here! Hopefully we don't wind up pregnant before then though- I really would like to reach some of my fitness goals before we try. I am still not on any birth control though, and condoms are hard to remember sometimes... hopefully no surprise delays with Aunt Flow's monthly visit! =/ If something should happen though, at least I would have an excuse for more baby shopping!