baby blues or baby greens?

I think I have a case of the baby greens. Well- in between blue and green. It's not pure jealousy- there is a bit of depression mixed in with the jealousy. Marvin and Sarah had their baby last week and I recently found out 2 of my cousins (Desiree and Miranda) are pregnant and the wife of someone I went to junior high with too! I feel like everyone is having babies except me!

It's not that I am not happy for everyone else- I am so excited for them! It's just that I really wish that it was time for us to have a little bundle of joy too. I have been feeling really down ever since my new niece showed up; maybe a tiny bit broken hearted. I thought it was the new mom who was supposed to get baby blues- not the new auntie! I don't know what happened to me- maybe it's because this would be around the time I would be delivering if we had gotten pregnant the first time we tried or that this would be the time that we had orignally thought of trying for a second time.... I dunno. Oh well, I am sure I will get over it soon. There is not really anything I can do about except to just get over it.

Hopefully Nathan and I don't wind up with an unexpected pregnancy- he forgot to re-order my birth control on time, so I will have to miss a month of my Nuva Ring and, I guess just use condoms. It makes me really nervous. I have way more faith in my birth control ring than I do in a little piece of latex, and like I said in my previous post- we are sooooo not in the right place for a baby right now. I just keep telling myself- it's only one month, it's only one month....

I'll post some pics of baby Marley soon. Nathan has the camera at work right now.