Monday, March 12, 2012

so much for wishful thinking....

I am now one week past when the app says my period should be here. Two things that I do have though: a negative pregnancy and a UTI! Woohoo!....not. So now I basically sit and wait for my period to show up- so I can start my next cycle with some ovulation tests. Nathan thinks I should still hold off another couple months before I see a doctor. It's been 735 days since I created this blog. I have watched so many hopeful due dates and conception dates come and go... it's super discouraging.I know it's going to happen eventually, but goodness, it feels like it is taking forever!


On a brighter note, we a got text on Saturday from Marvin informing us that they are expecting in October AND I didn't cry! (That's probably because I bawled my eyes out the night before.) There's a handful of couples that I know that got married around the same time or after we did that are already expecting baby #2. I know it's ridiculous of me to say this- but it seems so unfair. I'm not saying that their families don't deserve those blessings or that everyone needs to stop growing tiny humans because I haven't been able to yet- it's just UGH! I want it so bad! And it seems like everyone else around me already has it or is getting it except me. And what's worse is that I feel like this blog has gone from hopeful and excited to disappointing and just plain depressing. Hopefully some good news will come around soon.

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