waiting...

It's been a while since I have posted- I've had a bunch of crazy junk going on in my life and just haven't gotten around to it.  I've thought about it at least a dozen times, I just never got around to doing it. So here are a couple things that have happened:

-As of June 29th I no longer have a full time job. It's a long story that I don't want to get into a the moment- but I can tell you one thing- it is absolutely for the best. I honestly couldn't be happier- my stress levels are way down for the most part. My former employer has dragged me through some ridiculous unemployment battling which has been frustrating but it has shown me their true colors and I am so happy not to be affiliated with anymore. I am kinda ashamed that I work for someone who behaves in the manner that they do. ANYWAY- like I said, my stress is way down now, so perhaps that might help with the fertility issues.

-I intentionally missed one month of Clomid and then accidentally missed a second month because I forgot to refill the prescription on time. Both months were surprisingly normal cycle wise- a little longer than normal but not too bad. In August I took my last prescribed month of Clomid- we gave it good try and now I am just waiting and waiting for what seems like forever. I should be able to take a pregnancy test in a day or two.

Of course I am doing what I always do- convincing myself that I am pregnant and then talking myself out of it. This time my symptoms are fatigue, weird new sensations in my lower abdomen, and mild breast tenderness.

Nathan pointed out the other day that if I am pregnant, we could announce it to the family at Christmas- and I was like- yeah, don't think that I haven't already thought of that! I think that would be so fun. Anyway- I have many other things to do, so that's all for now. I will post again in a day or so.